Yikes! It’s been a really long time since I posted. I have no excuses. I was…well I was doing other things. Sleeping mostly. But eating and working too. I actually wrote this post a month ago but I never got around to posting it….so yeah. Fail. Anyway, lately I’ve been hit over the head with… Continue reading The Self Image Battle
The most brilliant minds in our world have struggled with the greatest, most embarrassing, most debilitating mental illnesses. Just like lifting weights, the more we work, the more mental muscles we build. The people around you who have to fight uphill every step of the way have some pretty huge mental muscles, even though they may not seem “normal” to you.
When I have a plan to deal with a fear, no matter how scary, the impact is lessened. When I can accept that I’m afraid and say that it is okay to be afraid, the shock of it all lessens as well.
This is one of my greatest fears: that I won’t be able to be the independent and successful woman that I long to be. I could be ridiculously well educated. I could have perfect networks. I could have people clamoring to hire me for executive positions. But it won’t mean anything if I can’t do the basic stuff.
My OCD can drive me absolute nuts. Sometimes I just want to cut off my head so it will stop buzzing and telling me something’s wrong. But honestly when I take a step back and look at my OCD, some of the stuff I do is actually pretty damn funny.
I spent a huge amount of my growing up years afraid of my weight. I spent days cowering in corners because I was afraid that if I came out of them people would judge me and hate me because of how I looked. I was so wrong, and I eventually came to the conclusion that life is so much nicer when I’m content and I like myself the way I am. So I practice that. Yeah, sometimes I cry because I don’t look how I want to, but every day I tell myself that I am beautiful, sexy, and attractive the way I am
People who think they understand mental illness when they don’t, can be really toxic people without meaning to be.